AWAKING IN VAIN

Shut in a dark room,
Light pips in only through ventilation.
My wait for you
And the years to come has
Just begun.

Collision of random thoughts in the brain.
On your arrival
Will I kiss you first and hug you later
Or should I retire to a corner
And weep till I sense your tear drops
Over my eyes.

Why you were born?
To make me suffer,
To see other bleed to death,
Though death is no more a fear.
I can bear thousand such death
And thousand such reincarnation
But not this life, not this life.

You, a confused soul
Can’t even smell the fresh blood
Not even the blood that have been
Clotted for a long time over the floor.
Awake yourself, open your eyes
See the suffering, see the tears,
See the blood
And the dead lying beside you .

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